Wednesday, June 8, 2011


One of the most amazing things in this world is "the relationship". Everyone is seeking for a companion with whom they can share the impossibilities and secrets. For those who are lucky get true love but somehow somewhere goes wrong unnoticed. While, on the other hand, some people strive to live with a true person but anyways, we never know when they will split. Such is the relationship where we promise never to get into quarrel and end up arguing to each other. However, for some people waiting for their someone special, they end up either a bachelor or a spinster. I may be wrong in many ways explaining the relations. However, the different mentality of a person has a great affect about the relationships. When I say this doesn't mean to offend anyone but it is a specialty in a relationship which is quite complicated to understand.

Similarly, striving for a good relation needs lots of commitments which I tried to keep at my best but failed as the time passed on by.  The temporal conditions I live in was luxurious and pleasurable. However, I was determined not to spoil my present luxury state thinking about the past and so I moved on with a fair and clean heart never to born myself with a wrong attitude. But the feelings of your longing constantly stroke me but I couldn't do anything than to leave it as my memory. The thought of you being far away made me weaker to fight for the unwanted stuffs near. Naturally, I was bounded with sadness which I can never explain just like the mystery untold, it remained as a secret not to unfold. S

Normally, I use to notice people fighting, teasing, stupidity acts among the crowds and other childish smiley's between the couples. I just smiled to the people rejoicing of being together but my innocent thinking about 'US" started to flow all over again. After witnessing the smiley couples, who won't have missed their dear beloved ones. I know we are far and things did not work as planned but i have always cherished the moments we had together. Someimes, I complain the distance for creating a problem. Just as some special words remain unsaid, the reason for the trouble in a relation is of miseries or else happiness. People including me complain about every downfall but the truth is we are the foremost reason to be complained about everything.

Whatever the controversies may be over the relations, what I know is A TRUE HAND IN MARRIAGE is all we want at the end. The unfamiliar connection bringing trouble in relation and could be "self" causing "the relationship" to be considered as untrustworthy. It's a message for all that "some people welcomes their with love with a promise to stay with us but they quickly goes without an unanswered reason. After that, we become broken and we are never the same but a changed one"

I called you

Calling has many depths of meaning ad here I meant the feelings I felt which reminded  that I have been yours only.  But how far is it true? This infinite thought of being with you captured me and the little times we had in Bhutan. My habit of thinking over again made me question; Will I stay with you forever? Will we last?  Whatever the situation might be, at the moment, I was deeply thinking about you.

The sense of pleasure to go to party  was not my thing but the friends kept on asking to enjoy the night.  I replied   nothing and continued reading the articles in  the Nopkin. My most favorite and preferential site FACEBOOK kept me busy with the chats ad gradually I met respectable friends. I was always welcomed despite some other irritating mocking friends. I am sorry to say this but I do meet such irresistible unknown friends. Anyways, I didn't wanted to go to any places.My involvement with all these comfy activities never forgets to feel you. It is you that makes me take another step and Yes, I am happy because I miss you.

You even  complained me for not missing you and this was really selfish on your part. I missed you every little moment I had but you never believed me. Gosh! I am tired of explaining again and again. I am innocent. Why are human incapable of understanding the decent talks rather than believing the unwanted conversations.The way I feel for you is different as you know that.  I think you should know about this and I must suppose that the change in me is evident now. I count on you to judge and you did. I respect that and I listened you. But somehow, in the middle of the way, I lost you. Love is as complicated as a  networks in the Global map. We get the one we looked for but somehow, we go in the wrong direction. Because of this one mistake, it takes us to another world which we never knew. Still, in this unknown world of misery, I will love you. Now, I am becoming loveholic. 

I know I am being quite submissive here for confessing my weakness. But anyway, this is  the only way left to prove you that this is "ME".  I am with you but this is not enough. It is important that you stay with me because I still  feel you.

The Suffocation

There is a freedom not when you have the right to speak for yourself but when you speak what your heart wants to. Things don't happen as same as we wish to let it occur in our life. This is because people  change with time and everyone is aware of it. Similarly,  work comes along interrupting the present environment and we start to wonder aimlessly. It becomes difficult to push forward our life and memories return with a sad note.

No matter how much my friends and families praise me, I think I am an undefined person with random thoughts like any one. If they good to us, it is because they love you. We sometimes become a prey to darkness and bond with devils. That is exactly how our thoughts are black. We turn blind eye to brighter side ignoring everything possible to make us a normal person.

The suffocation of good and evil loiter around challenging the person inside me. I see my friends and families then I see the devils on the other side. I watch all of them with determination to define myself. As I become intensely weak, I know that no one can help but myself. I raise my head up and pray with my heart and make up my mind to erase everything the is bothering me. Let me tell you, it is not as easy as it seems to let go off whatever is troubling you.

It took me months and years to come back to myself-normal me. Then I could see my closed ones happy and smiling. We are strong because we know there are some people in the world you know that I am there someone and I have someone to live for. Thinking about all the weakness inside me, I felt my strength within and return to being myself but with a new version of myself never to torment myself with evil and just remain strong. Suffocation is just another trouble and we need to overcome through this by ourselves and no one.