Friday, May 3, 2013

A Startled Heart

It is neither love that comes around, disturb you nor a race and make your heart thump to have your heart startled so quickly. There is a special and very common reason you encounter yourself with your heart beating multiple times in seconds. You do everything you could to avoid your heart race.

A daily routine, I am in my room cozying myself inside the blanket and I am either listening to music or watching some series after returning home from Uni. My roommate is usually at Uni and arrives home late. So basically, I am alone in the apartment.

As silent as our house is, I am too soundless that every background sound seems like a thunderstorm to me. It never fails to startle me and I just snap out the swear words as loud as I possibly could. This makes me feel so much better following the incidence of disturbing horror noise I hear.

A door creaks, and I hear a “BANG” on the door and just curse the window for once again startling me over. I go back to minding my own business; to be with my computer. I set myself aside to not to pressurize myself with the noises I hear.

Then a bedroom door creaks so loud that I get off from the bed and then a heated blush appears beautifully on my cheek that I just came from basking under the hot sunny weather.

It frequently happens that sometimes you are left wordless when someone startles you. If it was unintentional, then I am fine. If it were intentional, I would grab all the opportunity to give so many (as in so many) reasons never to startle me in life ever again.

At the end, I can do nothing but smile and keep the incidents to myself, as this has become a habitual event everyday. I start to smile when I know that it is my roommate who had been using all her force to open the door so loudly and banging the door too hardly. I wonder if she had a bad day or if it is her normal way of doing things.

Let Him Go

There is a man who is standing with you
Promising you the life you could never own
Without him, the life could be unimaginable
But you only know that life is gone
Only when you let him go

True that you only need the light when it’s burning low
And only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love him when you let him go

The light and the sun overshadowed the love for you
It cannot be redeemed when you let him go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
The same old feeling in your heart passes by,
You see him when you close your eyes
May be one day you will understand why
Everything you touch surely dies when you let him go

True that you are high when you are feeling low
And only hate the road when you are missing home
Only know you love him when you let him go

There is nothing so much for you
There is nothing so much for me

So much staring at the bottom of the glass
Hoping one day you will make a dream last
Even if you let him go
Let him go….