On Motivation to Write

As much as I love to read and write, I tend to procrastinate a lot. For the past few days, I have been encouraging myself to write a poem or an article but ended up logging off reading others oh-so-nicely updated blog.

Getting off your ass and getting things done is not easy and nor will it be. No matter how long you wait for tomorrow, the dirty little secret of a blogger is that we need a little kick in the butt to get us motivated during the day-to-day battles of life. Although, I do keep a personal journal, my daily based life, sometimes, not updating on a blog can be quite awful.

So today, Friday is a virtuous day for me; for the reason that the weekend is near and soon visiting Sydney for an Audience by HH Dalai Lama, I am all excited and feeling a little motivated for some unknown reason.

I came up with a love poem, to which I can’t think of any other poem to start something of my kind; I had a very good time refreshing myself to the extreme of needing to write another one. But I am keeping it to rest as I have an exam coming up in few days.

Like always, I can’t wait to read the new upcoming articles here in the blog. And as said earlier, the blog and the bloggers keep me away from home and close to you all.
Happy Weekends to Everyone! :)

The Couple

The summer of love was beautiful:
Two young lovers, aged 22-26
Journeyed the city of love
With marriage and commitment
Promising never to leave each other again
As second chance in love comes so rarely
Young in love, and pure in heart
Decided to start a fresh beginning:
A new vow, a new joy, a new life
Therefore, with heart to heart,
they vowed to be together
Making up to one another’s choices
And choosing to live a Greater life: full of life
For a loving couple like them,
Who is ready to amend the past
Willing to sacrifice for one another
Saw a greater vision in love
To love again is what measured their strength
Hail to those lovers
Who are back to falling in love
Who are beginning to see the rise of sunshine together
Smile with sleep and wake up in smile
As there is someone close, holding you heart in peace.

In Your Name

Your name is the reminder
I want to forget for life
It’s your name, that’s my enemy:

Your name fetches me love
Your name warms my heart
Your name gives me joy
Your name fills me with laughter
Your name completes me

No matter the pleasant life
I can never forgive myself
For I have lost the man I loved
And the wounds won’t go away
Until your name is off my chest

You are becoming the reason
I want to forget my worthiness
The fact that you are not mine
Is in the name I remember

Of a man I dearly loved
That I cannot love like this again
It’s in a blink of your name
I breathe my love for you

It’s in your name, that’s my enemy

A Startled Heart

It is neither love that comes around, disturb you nor a race and make your heart thump to have your heart startled so quickly. There is a special and very common reason you encounter yourself with your heart beating multiple times in seconds. You do everything you could to avoid your heart race.

A daily routine, I am in my room cozying myself inside the blanket and I am either listening to music or watching some series after returning home from Uni. My roommate is usually at Uni and arrives home late. So basically, I am alone in the apartment.

As silent as our house is, I am too soundless that every background sound seems like a thunderstorm to me. It never fails to startle me and I just snap out the swear words as loud as I possibly could. This makes me feel so much better following the incidence of disturbing horror noise I hear.

A door creaks, and I hear a “BANG” on the door and just curse the window for once again startling me over. I go back to minding my own business; to be with my computer. I set myself aside to not to pressurize myself with the noises I hear.

Then a bedroom door creaks so loud that I get off from the bed and then a heated blush appears beautifully on my cheek that I just came from basking under the hot sunny weather.

It frequently happens that sometimes you are left wordless when someone startles you. If it was unintentional, then I am fine. If it were intentional, I would grab all the opportunity to give so many (as in so many) reasons never to startle me in life ever again.

At the end, I can do nothing but smile and keep the incidents to myself, as this has become a habitual event everyday. I start to smile when I know that it is my roommate who had been using all her force to open the door so loudly and banging the door too hardly. I wonder if she had a bad day or if it is her normal way of doing things.

Let Him Go

There is a man who is standing with you
Promising you the life you could never own
Without him, the life could be unimaginable
But you only know that life is gone
Only when you let him go

True that you only need the light when it’s burning low
And only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love him when you let him go

The light and the sun overshadowed the love for you
It cannot be redeemed when you let him go

Staring at the ceiling in the dark
The same old feeling in your heart passes by,
You see him when you close your eyes
May be one day you will understand why
Everything you touch surely dies when you let him go

True that you are high when you are feeling low
And only hate the road when you are missing home
Only know you love him when you let him go

There is nothing so much for you
There is nothing so much for me

So much staring at the bottom of the glass
Hoping one day you will make a dream last
Even if you let him go
Let him go….

In Darkness

With heartbreak and sad sighs,

Days felt like weeks and week’s months
The fever I stumbled upon
Doubled the pain I was in

I waited in the dark
Trying to figure out my life
I kept the distance
Created a space that was still too close to me

I was thinking of you dearly
I was looking for a place
I was looking for a face
As nothing was going right

I wished for you to come to me
To take me to the lights
But not a single leaves fluttered
My heart carried nothing but Grief

I cried in silent
I wished you were here
To take me somewhere
I don’t know where
But I wanted to be in your arms
Holding each others hand
Telling me everything will be fine

I opened my eyes
The shelter broke
There was no, “YOU” and tears fell
I cried and sobbed
And I gave up on you
You failed me completely.

Heartbreak

He has broken my heart
Why should I feel bad about it?
It is his rights to love me or not to

I did not know before
Today I have understood
What they call love
It is the bargaining of hearts

It is independent
Whenever it wants, it takes a sigh
Why should I put a wall in his path?
It is his decision to love me or not to

The consideration of all the promises
It broke instantly as he left me

The point of sadness
To which he has brought me and abandoned me
Upon the threshold of that point
I decided move on

For the rest of the life,
I will be a stranger to him.
All this injustice this heart has put upon me
It will always remind me of Love, patience and heartbreak.